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by flowrpunk

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here are my demos! these will all be on my Big Album that i will be releasing sometime in the next few months

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released May 6, 2017

i wrote and performed and recorded all these myself except for sunshine which was recorded by my friend alec

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flowrpunk New York, New York

singer/songwriter/
survivor. here to spread joy and pick flowers.

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Track Name: knots
trauma tied my being into knots
everything i do i feel is twisted
from some past buried in shame

i know i'm not getting across
that you're loved but it is trapped inside me
someone tied my mouth into a knot
someone tied my heart into a knot

someone said i'm not allowed to cry
someone said i'm not allowed to feel good
someone said i'm not allowed to love

everywhere i look i find a knot
everything i think about reminds me
of being buried in shame
Track Name: sunshine
sunshine
you're no better than rain
so quite lying to everyone
cause you're no better than rain

sunshine
you and me had a deal
that you could help me feel ok
but you're no better than rain
so quit your lying and say

that you don't know what you're doing
you just rise in the morning and try like the rest of u
no you don't know how to make things right
so who made you king of the sky anyway

sunshine
please get out of my face
come again another day
cause you're no better than rain
Track Name: ennui
i wake up again
to another empty day
the sun is up again
and today will be a day
today will be a day

i get out of bed
it takes me an hour or two
i get out of bed
and i find i have nothing to do
nothing that i can do

what is life
what is this life
when did i sign up and where can i get off

i want to do everything
i want to do everything
i'm tired of feeling tired
i'm tired of not feeling

when i was a kid
i read a lot of books
back then i could forget
the world inside a book
i really miss reading books

when i was a kid
i thought i was a girl
when i was a girl
they said i would be alright
i thought i would be alright

i cannot recall
a time i didn't feel bad

what is life, what is this life
when did i sign up and where can i get off

i want to do everything
i want to feel everything
i'm tired of feeling tired
i'm tired of not feeling
i feel like i'm wasting time
i'm tired of wasting time
i want to do everything
i want to do everything
Track Name: like an angel
my room is a ghost town, the shadows of laughter
from silence to silence, from rafter to rafter
the moonbeams that fall outline no silhouette
of myself while i crouch like a torn cigarette

and i look for your face
in my dead poetry
like a bird, like a bird
come to me

so i want you, and i watch for you
so i need your arms like a shield
like an angel, like an angel
so i take time, and i take your time
so i sink through your arms like a stone
like an angel, like an angel

if i had my wings i would fly to your room
i would knock on your window, i would play you my tune
and if u asked me to stay i would make you my own
i would fly in your head i would make it my own

and i know that in time, you'd sing passionately
like a bird, like a bird
come to me

so i want you, and i watch for you
so i need your arms like a shield
like an angel, like an angel
so i take time, and i take your time
so i sink through your arms like a stone
like an angel, like an angel
Track Name: i'm fine
i sit and wait for you i do that's all i do i sit and
wait for you to call me up and turn my day around and still the
voices in my head are coming closer closer help me make them stop
help me drive them out distract me from myself but still

i'm fine, i'm fine i'm fine

sometimes when i'm by myself and everything is quiet that's when
darkness screams the loudest sometimes i can hear the me i left
behind she is screaming she is silent she will never tell your
secret's safe with me i swear i'll never tell but still

i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine

so i will pick my flowers grow my roses i will never stop
believing i'll get better someday i'll be happy sitting by myself
and the voices will be friendly they will sing me songs
that i'll put down on paper and tell everyone i wrote them and i'll
never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever
ever ever ever ever ever ever ever think of you again

and i am learning, i am growing and
i will get there just watch me

but sometimes when i'm by myself i feel like i am slipping soon i'll
disappear completely without someone there to ground me and i
don't know if you did this to me or if it's always been there i am
struggling always struggling and i need someone to tell me that it's

fine, it's fine it's fine